Hypocritical

Short update. I'm kind of fuming right now. You know, sometimes I find it so hard to even trust people. I mean, fine, you can dislike people. Everyone's sure to dislike someone. You dont have to lie about it or tell that person right in the face (yes, that'd be too harsh) but one thing you can do is; stop being hypocritical.

One moment, you told me all that's happened you guys and fine, I understand why there's bad blood now. But I dont take sides 'cause both sides are my friends. But the next moment, you guys are hanging out and talking to each other as if YOU GUYS WERE CLOSE AS BEFORE. I know I know, friends fight and patch things up. But when I asked, "So you guys are cool now uh? That's good." And the answer I got wasnt, "Yeah, we're friends agn." Fuck, you tell me this, at least I'd be glad 'cause you all finally clear all the mess up and we'd all hang out tgt agn.

But noooooooo.

Then why are you still making plans to hang out tgt and chat and everything. If you tell me you still dislike the person, stop acting close. You dont have to do mean things like fighting or whatever, just ignore or avoid. Just stop faking. It irks me.

Being so hypocritical makes me feel that it's so hard to trust them now. 'Cause I dont know if they're "real" or just acting too. I cant believe I was so easily taken in. Every situation is the same, I believe too easily. Like the past, just a "I'm sorry. I love you.", I believed it that love can conquer everything.

I dont know why I'm so upset. I'm so upset with myself. Maybe today isnt my day. I feel like I'd get pissed at ANYTHING.